i think im suffering from the "toofewfriends" syndrome. i really think i should try and reach out to people more. its not like im a freak or something like that. its just that, i cant seem to find the right people (or they cant find me). im such a whiner sometimes. arg. but its true and its sad. i knew someone back in the day. a girl from a school near mine. she was witty and smart and full of ideas. the best part was that she never seemed to have any hesitations. i was awed by her confidence. it was a one of a kind experience. talking till dawn about her views on life, drugs, pain, dying, sex (yep, she talked about this with me and miraculously, there was no hint of malice), pregnant kids, kids born by their kid moms, finding the right person, being wacky, sleeping, not sleeping, just about anything under the sun. no topic was safe. and she was enlightening. very vibrant. i want to know more people who are like her. but it seems weird going about my life looking for them. i dont want to conduct a search, i want to to find em "accidentally" confusing...where do i begin? oh well...