let's play a game..i'll write, then you'll read. first thought that comes to mind, no editing, no scripts, just a runthrough....
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yesterday. why write about yesterday? well why not  write about it?! it was FUN! it was a wake up call! yesterday, i was ALIVE! i saw her...im lost for words. and being speechless is hardly anything that i am. we went to this expo stuff. it was interesting. she was beautiful. glancing. i was always stealing glances. chances to stare at her angelic face...it was a sight...*sigh* all i could do was sigh. i panicked at first, seeing her again after so long. she was different. a lot more mature, mature, not old. she looked like a freshman, i was awestruck...one remarkable thing, no dull moments. a few silent breaks, but no dull moments. it was exceptional. she was always amusing, always smiling, i sensed her confidence, the way she would stare back at me. it was striking, and comforting at the same time... bliss... it was casual, the date was casual. we laughed almost all the time. i remember standing there by the railing, looking at kids skating. i remember looking at her face, so simple yet full of grace...*sigh* i remember the bookstore, we read kid stories, i bought a book, we simply talked and looked and i felt comfortable. i felt secure. i rested my head on her shoulder and everything felt RIGHT. *sigh* i remember the couch, the cheesecake store couch. it was comfortable and soft. she rested, nestled with me..it was indescribable...she looked at me and smiled...i was melting...right there and then....i melted...*sigh* i remember the cinema area, i asked to escort her, like our first dance together, walking, holding each other's hand...*sigh* then i melted...i remember walking toward the trains...savoring each moment, wanting it to last forever...wishing that the day wont end...it was sad..i melted...we embraced, nearly hugged, i wish we had, it would have deifinitely felt warm an unforgetable hug at that...*sigh* she melts me...a thought of her melts me...her face melts me...if i was an ice cube before, im definitely a puddle of water now...i wish i could be with her....i wish i had been with her back then....i wish i could be with her someday...i wish we'd eventually be...*sigh* im scared....of many things...but more than anything else, im scared to hurt and get hurt....im scared to commit...but i want to commit....i want to....but i guess i'll let time do its thing now...but more than anything again...i wish we could wait...
 
*sigh*
*deep breath*
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