my fuckin stomach's on a damned revolution again. damn i hate this. but i guess today will turn out great in the end. mom gave me a ride today but again she miserably failed to show me her gentle motherly side. iv gotten used to her shouting and ear crashing screams. i was lectured on how my life should be lived but as always, i let it pass through my audio tunnel unnoticed. hai, my parents always tell me to help out at doing the chores and house stuff but i dont see the point in helping if there isnt anything to fix. I wish they'd tell me what they want me to do. Expectations have always been a burden for me. I cant really make use of my free time efficiently. I made adjustments to this site as you can see and it gave me a new motivation to write. im still at the brink of depression from you know what but im slowly inching away from the edge. I guess I could distract myself more often just so I wouldnt notice how sad i really am. posting always helps though. i want to go to school already. i want to be distracted. i need my drug.
damned.
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