i just heard a really good opening line...

"today they asked me" (nice)

today dad asked me why i looked shlumpy. I simply answered: "Insomnia". That was my last statement for the duration of the ride. Damned, I feel bullied and dumb. Damned rhymes with Dumb. I agree with some of the things he said this is because I listen to it even if I don't want to. It was painful to be accused of not listening. I wish I haden't listened so that if ever I was accused, it wouldn't hurt. I guess i'm to blame for losing their trust. I have always been the withdrawn independent type. I can't stand the feeling of being treated as just a drone. they always tell me that they have been through hell and stuff jsut to finish their studies, that I'm lucky that I'm not a working student etc. I know how lucky I am to not have experienced what they went through, I know that I owe them a lot. In fact, I owe them everything. Im not ungrateful nor angry. I just want them to realize that I acknowledge what they mean. I just want to be trusted again. I want to be treated as a son and not as a burden. I want to help, I really do, but they don't let me. Im stuck in a cupboard. Anyone could open it anytime, but no one wants to. Maybe Im exagerating (spelling check) but I cant help but feel stupid. I dont even know what im writing anymore.

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out....