langya talaga. angkati. makatingmakati. bwiset. sobrang makati. dumugo na't lahat makati pa rin. ilang beses nang ginustong magsara pero pilit paring tinatastas ang balat na tumatakip sa sugat. hindi makuntento sa paglipas ng kati. kelangan mong dumugo. bilang parusa sayo. kailangan mong dumugo. nakakatuwang isipin na ginagamot mo ang sarili mo. pero dahil dyan, lalo kang masasaktan. pero wala ring silbi. kailangan mong dumugo. dahil nakakatuwa. kakaibang tuwa. masokista? hindi naman. masarap lang talagang kalikutin ang naghihilom na balat. kalikutin hanggang sa mamula. mamula dahil sa dugo. at pag napunit na muli ang sugat na maghihilom na sana, papatak ang dugo. at papahiran ko ng sama ng loob. dahil alam kong sa pagtagal ay gagaling ka rin. ngunit sa ngayon, dumugo ka muna. para matapos na. para matapos na. tapusin mo na.

Let it bleed Used
This poison’s my intoxication
I broke a needle off in my skin
Pick the scabs and pick the bleeding
And assume that it was all in vein

Popping a scab that’s never healing
It just hit me in the face
Burning bridges, So misleading
The poison’s more important now with the pain

Let it bleed
Take the red for what it’s worth woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing

The fire department couldn’t drown the city
They didn’t even try to wash it clean
And what did you think that I was sober
For me yea cause I’m on fucking fire

Popping a scab that’s never healing
I’m proud that I kept this clean
The most that I can do for you is keep on lying
I’m tired of lying
I think I’d rather sin

Let it bleed
Take the red for what it’s worth woah
Watch the fire
Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying you might wanna sing

Ohoh you might wanna sing
Ahaha you might wanna sing
Hahah you might wanna sing
Hahahaha sing
You might wanna sing
You might wanna sing
You might wanna sing or scream at...

This poison’s my intoxication
I broke a needle off in my skin
Pick the scabs and pick the bleeding
And yeah.. assume that it was all in vein

Let it bleed
Take the red for what it’s worth, woah
Watch the fire
I’m gonna fill your lungs with smoke for the last time
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying
If you feel like dying,
You might wanna sing
Hahaha You might wanna sing
Haha You might wanna sing

whew talk about hecticity (**hecticity - refers to a state of having a very tight/hectic schedule**). iv practically got no time at all. except for times like these, where doing something productive just doesn't feel right. I think I'm gonna have a huge problem after a few days...damned projects.

requirements/assignments list:

1. building con project : model house
completion status: 1.5%
2. building con exam : 4 chapters
exam date : tomorrow.
knowledge of topics : i'd say about 3.8 %
3. filtwo script :
due date : next week
completion status : -2%
4. political science recitation : 3 chapters
date of recitation : later today
knowledge of topics : zilch
5. Computer Assisted Physics lab report : 6 pages handwritten
date of submission : friday (today is tuesday by the way)
completion status : 10% (iv already had the data photocopied. nax)
6. Technical Writing report : chapter 3
date of submission : no idea
completion status : 0.0001% (**i think that my groupmates should do something about that fuckin paper right about now since i made the last two chapters already. those good for nothin low life bums! **fuming**)
7. Need for Speed UNDERGROUND 2 : Career Mode
completion status : 51% **konting tiyaga na lang!**
8. Magic: The Gathering Tooth and Nail Deck
completion : 98% **still have to fix the boards**
9. Magic: The Gathering Red Burn Deck
completion : 95% **still tweaking the deck**
10. Magic: The Gathering Modified "fish" deck
completion : 60% **aint got no breads to fund the fuckin expensive cards.**

SUMMARY : I think everything is still in order. I really think I'll get by.
I have this knack for completing things a night before the deadlines. Maristian to' boy!

-out! gotta run! sayang oras!

Color of most clothes you own: [black] Number of pillows you sleep with [2] What room are you in right now? [e-lib] What were you doing 12AM last night: [racing. NFSU2!] How old will you be in 10 yrs: [29]. What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years: [taking my 2 year old boy to visit their lolo's huge house. ] Do you have braces? [nope] Are you paranoid? [yep. and its all because of the letter after w] Do you burn or tan? [in hell u'll burn, in the beach u'll tan] Describe your wallet? [grey hang ten. sleek and non-expensive] Your alarm clock? [surprisingly pink] Your hair? [demonic without gel, acceptable with gel] Tooth brush? [dalawa. futuristic ung look nila] What color are your nails? [normal color] What color are your eyes? [depends on the lighting *naksampoota*] First kiss? [ayus lang] First piercing/tattoo? [none. dont have plans] First enemy? [myself] First big trip? [trip as in tripping? when i brainwashed all my classmates to hate michael acosta. wahahaha!, kung trip as in journey, USA.] First play/musical/performance? nursery. [ung stupid dance routine sa marie's learning center.] Last cigarette? [never tried. no plans] Last good cry? [long time ago.] Last movie seen? [Mr.Deeds] Last person you yelled at? [house help] Last beverage drank? [water] Last crush? [ung girl sa MRT na mukhang anghel] Last shoes worn? [wahhaa! diesel na brand new!] Last annoyance? [finding out that the househelp burned my 2nd pair of school pants. and i only have 2 pcs.] Last words spoken? [tangina] Last ice cream eaten? [BTIC - kalhua brownie] Last thing written by hand? [log-in sa e-lib] Last time amused: [NFSU2!] Last time wanting to die: [can't recall. i want to live.] Last time in love: [ask jeeves] YOUR.. 1. whole name: aLexander rey alas gervacio 2. nicknames: alex, jun, demonboy, kuya, tito, hoy, nongs, homeboy, junjun, bro, dude, tol, and superidolmegawow. 3. birthday: march 16. 4. zodiac sign:fish 5. civil status: single SCHOOLS: 6. elem: marist 7. high school: marist 8. college: UPLB, FEU-ea 9. course: enhinyerong sibil YOUR FAVORITE: 11. movie: singhaba ng great wall ang listahan 12. band/singer: THE USED! 13: games: NFSU2!!!!! diablo 2 14. invention of man: pc, cell, electric guitar tska EYEGLASSES! 15. chillout place: room, veranda, pool. 16. fruit mansanas ubas 17. sitcom characters: ung bida sa SCRUBS 18. day of the week: sabado 19. line from a movie: "at the break of dawn, look to the east" LOTR - two towers 20 talk show host: ?! THING YOU WANT TO... 21. buy: new MP3 player, subwoofer, extra RAM, car 22. eat: as;djgh 23. receive this xmas: a wake up call for my life 24. try: try to meet new people 25 throw: warfreak ka a... DO YOU HAVE A... 26. lucky charm: yep. ung mga dice ko. shit di ko dala! 27. psychic abilities: i can determine virginity 28. coming quiz/exam: wala 29. allergies: im allergic to grammatical errors 30. fears: im afraid of many things. 31. drive: do you have a drive? anlabo. 32: cook: we dont have a cook. 34. keep a secret: yes. CHOOSE ONE... 36. read a book/watch a movie: watch a movie 37. brad pitt/colin farell/tom cruise: tom cruise 38. black/blue/pink/white: black 39. math/english: math 40. maroon5/rhchilipeppers/D12: red hot 1ST PERSON YOU REMEMBER WHEN YOU HEAR THE SONG... 41. i will survive: ung mga bakla nung HS. 42. can't help falling in love: ung aso namin 43. friend of mine: di ko alam ung song 44. because you loved me: ung aso ulit namin 45. i'll be: naaalala ko kung gano ka-pathetic ung kanta./kumanta/ at mga kakanta pa ng kantang to 46. role model/inspiration: dad. 47. best asset: stunning good looks. matalino ko. 48. talent: lying 49. worst dream: kinain ko ung utak ng mga kasambahay ko. 50.hobbies: books, games, tv, thinking about ways of wasting my pathetic time here on earth.

whoa..its been a while. sheesh, its been a full month (i think) since i last wrote something here. damned preoccupations. anyway, techwrite class got cancelled again. what's new...

NEED FOR SPEED UNDERGROUND 2! that's what's new!

yeah!

this fuckin racing game rocks harder than 7 ozzies combined!

im definitely an addict. the coolest thing about the game isnt the graphics, the gameplay or the story, but what really hooks me to it is it's ability to waste long hours of my pathetic life without me noticing! WOW! aint that great!?

play it!

it rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

NFSU2

-out!