an ode to ponks

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

ponksthis post is a sad post.

here goes...







an ode to ponks.
(by me obviously)

out you go to the open world
mighty mp3 player of mine
thanks for the service
the entertainment
and the fun
you helped me through a lot my buddy
through insomnia attacks
induced by my fear of the dark
you sang to me in different tunes and different voices
ur so versatile
you glow a faint glow of assurance
you faltered only after i fall asleep
i wake up and change ur batteries everyday
cos ur circuits drain the batts out
dry to the core
u carry only a few songs
but they were my favorites none the less
u tumbled and crossed paths
with the floor many times
but u survived
you helped me through awkward train rides
you saved me from boring vacations
you spared me from dull transit times
and in between connection flights
i know that this poem sucks
but again it accentuates ur hidden trait
ur a loyal servant mp3 player ponks
cos even if i just thought of ur name at this moment lang,
u still never said a word
u never complained
u pulled me through thick and thin
sulit ka na rin. (wow rhyme un a!)
u were expensive back then (5000)
but every penny was worth it
im selling u now at half the price cos ur out dated and old
but i will treasure ur memory more than i treasure my exes
i know its not much of an honor
but ur an object and im just talking to myself
so that should do
i'll miss you ponks
kahit naka-iPod nako, di kita kakalimutan.
u have a special rockin nook inside my noisy cramped heart. astig.

sana madalas din maglinis ng tenga ung bibili sayo. ingat parati kaibigan.


-out...


-eLiv (sad)


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strange strangers...

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

hello world.

iv been exploring the world of chatting. it isn't as fun or as decent as it used to be. really disappointing. hai...

too bad...

the world is running out of sensible people...


i need to meet more...


maybe i should try blog hopping...



ash.



-out!


eLiv


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champorado't tuyo

Sunday, June 26, 2005

champorado't tuyommmmm.... :D champ and fish value meal, aka champorado't tuyo.

masarap ang champorado't tuyo. the marriage of sweet and salty is a union made in heaven. the milk slides as the innate saltiness of the sun dried fish explodes in your mouth like the sudden burst of life in the spring.

one very fond memory that i have associated with champorado was during that faithful stormy afternoon. nung day na un, mom gathered all three of her kids (me, te mai and te farah kasi wala pa si ace nun). back then we lived in a small house. cozy. we felt like a family. i love my family. anyway, i was s o fuckin scared of the lightning, thunder and the occasional power fluctuations. i cried. mom hugged me. my sisters hugged me. we all hugged each other. (nasan si dad? well, he was fixing the ceiling leaks but if he wasn't preoccupied about taking care of our house and US in general, he would've been there huggin everyone too.) after the storm, mom called everyone to eat champorado and tuyo. i love my mom, i love my dad, i love my sisters, i love my family. champorado and tuyo reminds me of that special afternoon. a small middle class family gathered together to eat, talk, laugh, smile and share each others company. that afternoon we found solace in each other. a comfort that can never be replaced or substituted by anything. the warmth and the security that a whole and loving family brings.

maraming salamat sa taong nakaimbento ng champorado't tuyo. pinagpala ka.


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ghost of you

Friday, June 24, 2005

damned...man i feel so weak... im havin a sinus attack people... ugh...there's this girl..half korean, half cebuana...damned! she's gorgeous! makes me weak... at first it was all casual "hi im blah and blah blah blah" and then it stopped and flowed and stopped. malabo...

im so confused about it. who is she? i can't construct a valid/logical explanation for her sudden appearance in my life. what is she? is she real? am i too paranoid?

she told me that she was born in korea and raised here in the philippines. she also told me that she's studying HRM at the UNIVERSITY of CEBU. i looked it up. aba! it exists! the plot thickens!

anlabo talaga! damned! i couldn't stop looking at her! i have to focus! i have to get to the bottom of this! may conspiracy dito! hindi pwedeng basta basta na lang mangyari to! set up ito! sana naman wag BITOY's FUNNIEST HOME VIDEOS! damned! WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?!?!?!?! eto na ba ang karma?! leche! all i could think about is spending more time with her! at this moment, 50% of my current brain capacity is focused on her. The other 50% is trying to figure out a way to prove that this is all just a bad prank.

if ever this isn't a wicked prank , i'd be the luckiest person alive.


but if it is, i'd even make my very own "i'm stupid" t-sirt.



i really hope she's real...
real enough not to hurt...

i sure could use a lil bit of omniscience right now.


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the camera's time to shine :D

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Image(495)this post is a tribute to the newest addition to my growing squad of seemingly useless but useful gadgets. it's my webcam. we all know it's uses. i just thought that maybe it's tired of always being the one assigned to take videos and photos (lagi ciang wala sa picture). i wouldn't want this newcomer to feel left out and unwelcome kaya pinicture-an ko.

oo na, wirdo na ko.


-out

-eLiv

ps>>> by the by, i'm still thinking of a name for all my gadgets...any suggestion? heto silang lahat

nokia 6600 (main phone)
nokia 3210 (ace phone)
ps1
ps2 (slim version)
bluetooth dongle
usb port extension
creative mp3 player
128mb flash drive
subwoofer system
pc microphone
tv
my pc
this pc
lamp
video cam
digital cam
acoustic guitar
electric guitar
white tiger stuff toy
mcFarlane lion


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spinning scissors



its 3:30am in the morning. talk about strong coffee! whew.

me, rem and ate mai went out for a cup o coffee. it was quite good. early morning entries are a bit harder to make...sheesh....

life's a bit too busy for me right now. reports, assignments, exams and all that crap are starting to take it's toll on me. I'm stressed, sleep deprived and bored. I wish my parents were here...I miss em. I've been lookin for a better distraction to life than studying. I'm running out of ideas at an alarming rate. I wish I could just talk to someone right now. a bit earlier i had a few tussles with a few people. it was a bit alarming and shocking but it's ok now. i guess there are things that are just too complicated for men to understand.

new friendster messages made me smile today. it's weird how people affect people even through a thick layer of anonymity. to tell you the truth, i'd give anything just to be able to talk to em. sensible, smart people are so hard to come by these days...too bad...

i really hope things turn up in my favor...sometimes i just feel so alone. uncomfortably so.

-out


-Live - eLiv


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grrr

Monday, June 20, 2005

"temper is the only thing that won't go away if you loose it"

i hate it when people catch me during my bad days. why? because i can't fuckin tolerate irritations during my bad days. i can't stand judgment or even mild mannered no harm intended jokes. i'm a fuckin time bomb set to 2.9 milliseconds during my bad days and i explode with a blast radius of epic proportions. damned fuck it! don't mess with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

grrrrrAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!

***deep breaths***

and today is one of those fuckin days.


the morning was terrible. the sister made me wait for nothing again. damn i hate waiting for people. my patience is as long as an ant's abdomen. when my boulder of anger rolls, it rolls hard and body counts rise at an exponential level. i'm a fuckin maniac when im angry.

im calmin down now.... whew....




argh!





-out.

eviL


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hop hop hop hoppy hop

Thursday, June 16, 2005

blog hopping, friendster hopping, bunny hopping, window hopping, mall hopping, school hopping, hopping around, hopping for fun, hopping for hopping, hopping galore, hopping awake, hopping drive, hopping grasshoppers, hopping rabbits, hopping hopefuls, hopping homeless, hopping homarids, hopping gorgons, hopping dakila, hopping politics.

so many hopping activities, so little hopping time!

i found a new calling. i'm really getting to like the idea of hopping through people's profiles. most profiles are "normal" and some are even quite boring (the ones that haven't been well maintained). amusing din pala (not to mention stressful). i really like the idea of analyzing how people feel about themselves. some are vain, some are insecured, some are angry, some are in love, some are worried and afraid, some are so happy to be alive and some are rushing to their deaths. the common thing about profiles though is that people write them as if they know that it'll be read kahit na isa or dalawa lang naman ang friends nya. i guess each person really does have that intrinsic need to seek attention. in a way, blogging is just a way of seeking attention, mas serious nga lang. hmmm....nah...mas malalim naman ng konti ang blogging. intrapersonal kasi 'to.

enough analysis for now...

gotta study! achoo!!!! achoo!!! achoo!! achoo!!! i always sneeze four times.


-yowts!



Levitator eLivator


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i just love the weather.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

yahoo! the weather is exactly how i want it to be...dark and gloomy :D

nice. really nice. cold winds, scary lightning and thunder, and heavy rain. i love heavy rain, specially when i'm inside my comfortably warm house :D

poem for the moment:


clouds weep thunder and lightning
as gentle winds spin turbulent
let the rain come to savor the moment
let the sky unleash it's sullen tears

heaven besieged in this night of nights
holy grace spilling beyond the lights
asylum doors welcome the tragic souls
prayers forlorn as the rainstorm falls

as for the massochist seeking refuge
from this thrashing maelstorm of late
may he bask in the moment's sorrows
as the world dims to the tempest's wake


the rain stopped. lech.


anyway...


-out!


-eLiv


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our not so humble abode

Sunday, June 12, 2005

our not so humble abodewow...i took a photo of our house's facade. ganda pala talaga...i myself was amazed!

it's a mystery how we often overlook the beautiful things around us just because they've always been there.

idol ko talaga si tatay dahil siya ang nagtayo ng bahay namin. it wasn't supposed to be this lavish, kaso naisip nila na the best advertisment is to use ur own products. engineer kasi si dad kaya nagtayo cia ng house na pang-advertise/tirahan namin. and tsanan! itong bahay na to ang kinalabasan...astig.

balang araw gagawa din ako ng ganito.

-out!

-eLiv


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whims

Thursday, June 09, 2005

achoo.

hay...vacation is finally over. i have to admit that i still want an extension, i mean, who doesn't want that right? anyway, the first trime has already begun and nothing can stop it's catastrophical attack on my summer siesta life. i was so frustrated of the hassles that came with enrollment. plus i had my wisdom tooth removed at the time. damned that hurt. all's well now. i expected a lot of work for this term but i think i underestimated the subjects. major problems include fluid mechanics which requires a lot of effort cos of the paperwork, mechanics, again because of the paperwork, engineering surveys which appears to be a sleeper until it hits you hard in the balls and differential equations, the second to the last math subject taught by this freaky weird candid prof. forgive my grammar flaws. effects of stress.

must sleep....



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-out!

-eLiv


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and then there was me.
an ambitious kid wandering alone in this train wreck called life.
fascinated by inanimate things and dastardly gaps in time.
wondering why the possibility of finding happiness
seems as slim a chance as finding penguins in the dessert.
he laughs.
laughs in mockery. laughs in fear. laughs in anger.
but his favorite laughter is that which hides the gloom
which has evolved from being an acquaintance to an intimate friend.
such is the demise of an observer trapped inside a toppled box.
ensconced inside a niche of shadows,
he laughs aloud just to drown the deafening silence

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