tanday parin ang unan
habang yapos ng kumot
ang damit ay lukot
ang diwa ay pagod

huni ng mga ibon
at ungol ng hangin
ang babati sa bagong araw,
araw na ayokong harapin

nilalambing ng umaga
ang mga matang tamad
inuudyok na gumising
at iwan ang lugar ng pangarap

nakita kitang muli
sa isang panag-inip
imaheng hindi tunay,
maganda ngunit panandalian

nakita kitang muli
at noon di'y sumaya
sumaya sa sandaling hindi tumatagal
sumaya ngunit nagunaw din

buksan ang mga matang mugto
saluhin ang luhang tumutulo
at ang nanumbalik na lungkot
ay salubungin ng pilit na ngiti't yakap

walang saysay ang buhay
kung walang kaibahan
kaya pawiin ang ngiti't tuwa
lasapin ang sarap ng lungkot at luha

dahil ito may matatapos din...

lilipas din...

lilimutin din...

gaya mo...

gaya ng panag-inip...

sabay kayong maglaho...

mabura sa diwa...

malunod sa kawalan...

at ako'y iwanan...

iwanang luhaan...

iwanang pagod...

iwanang giniginaw at baluktot...

iwanang malungkot sa talukbong ng kumot...




sadista ka.


"bedmarks"

-eLiv

Kings of Convenience - Cayman Islands

Through the alleyways
To cool off in the shadows,
Then into the street
Following the water.
There's a bearded man
Paddling in his canoe,
Looks as if he has
Come all the way from the Cayman Islands.

These canals, it seems,
They all go in circles,
Places look the same,
And we're the only difference.
The wind is in your hair,
It's covering my view.
I'm holding on to you,
On a bike we've hired until tomorrow.

If only they could see,
If only they had been here,
They would understand,
How someone could have chosen
To go the length I've gone,
To spend just one day riding.
Holding on to you,
I never thought it would be this clear.



hai...
its amazing how things just fit into place at times... i never imagined how much this song would affect me... its a gloomy gem... it found me and its breaking through... it makes me feel like opening my dam of tears and fears... such power... hai...

i think the song is about holding on to someone... holding on and never wanting to let go... unfortunately, nothing ever stays as it is... the next best option is to just enjoy the moment...

maybe that's love...

but i wouldn't know...
and if that IS love...
well...
then life is just another gloomy day...
maybe that's why some people just escape with death...
to love someone so much and then just let them slip away...
slipping away into nothing...
slipping without any other reason but to follow the natural order of things...
sometimes i even think that God is such a sadistic being...
to let people experience love and then let them lose it...
but in another light, maybe God is such a loving God....
letting those who have betrayed and disappointed him experience the only two significant experiences that matter...to love and be loved...

when will i ride that bicycle..

i wonder...

with every moment of my life i wonder...



"i never thought it would be this clear"

at it's core...peace in it's truest sense...




-floating...


-eLiv

wow! its been a year! :D happy birthday to my site

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mahal ko pa rin ang site ko. why?

dahil ito'y buhay. buhay ko. ako. ako pa rin.

as ruthie would say, "alex, conceited ka!" hahaha! :D

tama cia dun! :D

hahaha! :D salamat site! :D




-out!


-eLiv :D one year old blogger :D


ps>>> by the way, i've formulated a new kiler love line:

"iv been through hell and back when it comes to love, but still, after all that bullshit, i still cant figure it out, i guess when it comes to things like love, everything is a relative discovery. so if ur not too preoccupied with living ur life alone, i wouldn't mind asking you to come along, let's discover love, and life together."

naks ampoots! makalglag panty!

wow! i got a flat 100 on an exam that i half expected to fail! :D wahoo! :D this is a real confidence boost :D

who am i kidding.

i knew the topic well cos i failed the subject back in UPLB. pero masarap paring isipin that i'd be exempted from doing the dreaded 20 problem assignments that ma'am rem hands out. ayos na rin :D

but dont get me wrong, masaya ko :D wahoo! one hundred! :D ashtig! :D

next quiz humanda ka! :D

hahaha! :D


-eLiv ecstatic!


ps>>

nga pala! :D i got a few messages sa friendster ko! :D amazing talaga! :D i hope things brighten up even more with the sudden occurence of things :D wahaha! :D sarap mabuhay! :D